So the 18th December was my one year out of treatment and i wanted to take just a moment to look back at just how far i've come.
Today i'm over at the H & N centre for another check up.
This time last year i was up tp my eyeballs in morphine. & my existance was wake up, puke, sleep, puke, try to feed, puke.... You get it?!
My nerve damage was so severe i couldn't do up buttons, i couldn't even hold a pen. & i was about to have to worse christmas EVER! To be honest, i wanted to go to sleep and never wake up!
My side effects now - well, my hands are still fairly numb but the tingling has improved and it doesn't stop me doing a thing.
My taste buds are 99% ok.
My mouth is still a little sensitive but the actimel drinks keep the thrush away and i don't suffer with ulcers now. & i can enjoy a snowball this x-mas.
Trismus is still the same... no bananas fitting in my mouth!!
Energys back to norm (i'm working 6 days a week and 12 hour days)
Ears are still dodgey but the tinnitus is far better than before.
Weight - i'm a stone lighter than i was before this and can drop half a stone in a week but i feel ok.
So all in all... i'm doing so well.
Ok, so things wont ever be as they were before, but i dont know if i want to be the person i was before because i love my life now!
I started my own dog grooming business and its far exceding my expectations. Its hard hard work but i love every day of it! & i'm sooo busy.
I love my social life (when i'm not working)
& words cant describe how much i'mlooking forward to savouting every minute of christmas!!
So those in the thick of it... There can be life after caner... be strong and never give up!
Aim high and you'll reach it!
Love to you all...