Hi Paul, Hope all is well with you.
I have just joined this forum, so having a little difficulty in moving around.
Read a little bit about your situation, and I hope all is well.
Please, please keep up a good attitude. Wished I could be there to help you go through this trial.
Been two years now that I went through mine, and of coarse it all becomes a life long journey.
Good luck, and just remember, those of us that have been there, remember that none of us have been here before, so it all becomes some what scary!