Hi, i'm an 18 year old female. my real diagnosis is Anorexia Nervosa binge/purge subtype but most people don't associate the vomiting in anorexia b/p like they do with bulimia, so that's why I used bulimic in the title rarther than anorexic.... I have battled my eating disorder since i was 13 years old, but i've been vomiting on a frequent basis since i was 15. It waxes and wanes - sometimes I vomit/purge 2-3 times a day, other times several times a week, and on times where I'm making strides in recovery, i have gone about a week without it before.
Likewise, I am used to getting sores in my mouth pretty frequently. usually they're like ulcers on my cheeks and under my lips, or swelling in my throat and tonsils, but usually they go away in a week or two. However, I have had a strange lump on the bottom of my tongue for about 2 or 3 months. on times where I am purging a lot, it gets red and inflamed and painful, and bigger. when i'm vomiting less it's still there but it feels smaller and isn't red or painful. When it's bothering me I usually try and put oragel on it and don't eat a lot of solid food. Right now I haven't purged in two days, but it looks redder than it ever has and hurts quite badly. It is circular and protrudes from the left side on that middle part under the tongue.
I'm getting a little worried because of it not going away... I am in treatment for my eating disorder, am almost at a healthy weight (but i'm still underweight), and about to go to university. My family isn't very supportive emotionally of my problems with purging. they pay for my dietician and therapy appointments but can be cruel and bantering at home.. usually when I have a physical repurcussion from my ED they blame it on me and create a lot of shame for it, so i tend to keep them to myself..... but I'm not really sure what to do and I'm scared I don't know what it might be, whether it's benign or something more serious, or how to handle it... please help.