I can’t imagine how scared you must feel. Losing your mum to a similar ailment must antagonise your emotions even more.
and anger is natural too. I’d be furious.
I wonder why you feel you need to be so strong? I’m not sure that’s the best policy. Emotions need to be expressed If you hold them in and suppress them who knows what damage they can do?
If you can’t speak up at home then speak up on here We will listen we won’t judge You dint have to pretend to be strong
Sending you our most compassionate thoughts And loads of love too